Kohaku's Letter
Dear [the name is scribbled out].....
It has been years since you've last heard from me and I know you want to keep it that way. I know you don't want to be hearing from me and I'm so sorry for bothering you after all these years. I just... I really need to get things off my chest. You don't even need to read this letter. For all I care, you could have thrown it out by the time you saw who it was from. But, I need to get this off my chest. Since the day of our incident, it has been eating me alive...
I am so sorry.
You haunt my dreams and every second of the day. That look of sheer panic and terror that crossed your face that once held tender joy. The pain filled, nerve wracking scream that left your mouth as blood stained your soft fur. It haunts my dreams even to this day. A plague that manifested in my mind, consuming what joy I had and nestling in the back of my mind like a filthy parasite. I could feel my heart stuck in my throat that day. Every thump shook my head as the world began to spin.
I never meant to hurt you.
Ever since I blinded you in the ring, I never could face another competitor. No... I dare not injure anyone else. I could not bring myself to even come near that very ring that had caused you to leave my life. Not after that. Not after those nights that I spent together watching over you as you healed, but the whole time you were begging for me to leave. You couldn't trust me after what I had done to you. And I don't blame you.
I hurt you and I didn't mean to. I swear on my life I never meant to do such a thing. I never dreamed of hurting you before. I saw us sticking as friends until the day we grew old. You were my closest friend. My only true friend. The one who had cared about me more than anyone ever could.
I'm so sorry.
We were like sisters, you and I. But now it is like we never even knew each other. Your eyesight was barely saved in one eye, leaving you blind in the other. The doctors said it was a miracle you even had a tiny bit of eyesight in the one. You barely acknowledge me anymore if we ever come across each other in public... and... and I'm okay with that. You deserve a friend who wouldn't dare hurt you. One that would do anything to fight to have you trust them again.
I left when you needed me the most.
I just want you to know that I am so proud of the cow you have become since then. You have a family that adores you like you are their sun, moon, and stars. You are not a force to be reckoned with, I can see that familiar fiery attitude of yours whenever I see you in public. I want you to know that while I cannot return to you the eyesight that I took away from you so briskly, you have truly become an inspiration to me. You never backed down after your injuries. You adapted and you overcame your... disabilities.
I wish you the best in your years and I hope that you find true friends. Ones that will not harm you in the ways I did. And... I want you to know that I've changed. I'm not the same rough and tough fighter you knew me as. Because of you, I picked up astronomy and poetry. Something you cherished deeply but cannot enjoy so much anymore. Because of... me. I'm so sorry.
Goodbye.
It has been years since you've last heard from me and I know you want to keep it that way. I know you don't want to be hearing from me and I'm so sorry for bothering you after all these years. I just... I really need to get things off my chest. You don't even need to read this letter. For all I care, you could have thrown it out by the time you saw who it was from. But, I need to get this off my chest. Since the day of our incident, it has been eating me alive...
I am so sorry.
You haunt my dreams and every second of the day. That look of sheer panic and terror that crossed your face that once held tender joy. The pain filled, nerve wracking scream that left your mouth as blood stained your soft fur. It haunts my dreams even to this day. A plague that manifested in my mind, consuming what joy I had and nestling in the back of my mind like a filthy parasite. I could feel my heart stuck in my throat that day. Every thump shook my head as the world began to spin.
I never meant to hurt you.
Ever since I blinded you in the ring, I never could face another competitor. No... I dare not injure anyone else. I could not bring myself to even come near that very ring that had caused you to leave my life. Not after that. Not after those nights that I spent together watching over you as you healed, but the whole time you were begging for me to leave. You couldn't trust me after what I had done to you. And I don't blame you.
I hurt you and I didn't mean to. I swear on my life I never meant to do such a thing. I never dreamed of hurting you before. I saw us sticking as friends until the day we grew old. You were my closest friend. My only true friend. The one who had cared about me more than anyone ever could.
I'm so sorry.
We were like sisters, you and I. But now it is like we never even knew each other. Your eyesight was barely saved in one eye, leaving you blind in the other. The doctors said it was a miracle you even had a tiny bit of eyesight in the one. You barely acknowledge me anymore if we ever come across each other in public... and... and I'm okay with that. You deserve a friend who wouldn't dare hurt you. One that would do anything to fight to have you trust them again.
I left when you needed me the most.
I just want you to know that I am so proud of the cow you have become since then. You have a family that adores you like you are their sun, moon, and stars. You are not a force to be reckoned with, I can see that familiar fiery attitude of yours whenever I see you in public. I want you to know that while I cannot return to you the eyesight that I took away from you so briskly, you have truly become an inspiration to me. You never backed down after your injuries. You adapted and you overcame your... disabilities.
I wish you the best in your years and I hope that you find true friends. Ones that will not harm you in the ways I did. And... I want you to know that I've changed. I'm not the same rough and tough fighter you knew me as. Because of you, I picked up astronomy and poetry. Something you cherished deeply but cannot enjoy so much anymore. Because of... me. I'm so sorry.
Goodbye.